Monday, January 26, 2009

Sick

I'm sick. I hate being sick. I missed 3 classes today which essentially means I'm royally fucked. I'm hoping I feel better for tomorrow so I can work and go to my class. And I hope that I'll be okay for Wednesday - Disability Awareness Day!

I've been trying to just sleep the cold away. it's working, slightly. But my chin is swollen. So that's not helping things.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Same old, Same old.

Still working on the same issues. Mainly the sorority one. It's frustrating & life is complex.
Thank goodness for the ones who get me throughh <33

Sunday, January 18, 2009

All The King's Horses and All The King's Men ...

Couldn't put Humpty together again. And they can't put my life back together again either. I have two hugeee issues in my life right now that I'm just unequipped to handle.

1. Sorority.

I don't enjoy being a DAT girl anymore. I like planning events. I like running events. I enjoy hanging out and talking to those who talk to me - but there's a fair few who don't seek out my company. I didn't do anything to them. I attempt to talk to them and get to know them. But then I am accused of not trying, or not being friendly and flexible. I am friendly. I am flexible. I seek out everyone, I try to get to know each and every girl. It's hard, when there's 30+ girls in the group, but I think I do a good job. So why am I targeted, picked on, hated? I don't know what I did or how to fix it. It's either stick it out until the drama makers go away, or go inactive - and my life can't take anymore stress these days, so inactive is looking pretty good.

2. Home

I don't like living at home. I miss being able to set my own standards and rules. When I lived alone, my room was cleaner than it is here, my kitchen was clean, the living room got cluttered, but there was six of us. I cleaned, I stayed organized, and It was excellent. Here, I fight with everyone I live with, I get yelled at for not cleaning the kitchen I don't make messes is, I get yelled at for not cleaning my room, even though it's my space and no one else has to see it. I fight with my mother constantly. This morning we fought and I cried all through out church, even though it was a church session where I had to be strong and support my council and my decision to not renew our ministers contract. I was very unfocused today and that caused issues. I feel like I'm the brunt of all the anger in the household, and I get accused of being selfish and needy and controlling and pushy. But if you talk to people I work with, at McDonalds, at church, at school, those people can see that everything I do, it's so that someone else feels better. My main concern is always other people, but at home I'm apparently selfish and I don't see it. I can't take it here anymore. I really want to move, but it's not a feasible option for me right now, financially. Plus, when I eventually move I want it to be on a good note, not because we're fighting. I just really miss being me, running my own place and on my own time.

I miss Florida and Disney and Vista Way so much. I want to go back so badly, to work and to live and to be in the sunshine.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Amazing is as Amazing Does

The pasta dinner fundraiser I helped run tonight went so well! I got to watch Riley (neighbour) and Liz (sister) get hypnotized, ate some good food, gave away some sweet prizes and had 4 cupcakes. It was great.

Tonight I also PDF'd most of the files for the magazine to send to the printer tomorrow. I am so so so glad this issue is over with. It was definitely a learning experience.

I need my back cracked, and badly.

I also need to sleep. So off I go!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Ladies and Gentlemen, Your Attention Please

My life is chaotic. I do a lot. You should see my calendar. Therefore, forgive me my absences, thou shalt spare my sins.

I'm currently (4:12 am) listening to my magazine proof pages print. I couldn't figure out how to print them in grayscale, so TSM best be fronting me some ink money =) Did ya hear that Jazz?

The last five days or so of TSM life has been incredibly busy. I discovered I had done everything wrong, artwork wise, and had to REDO all of the art. Who knew CMYK was quite as important as it is? Thank goodness for Keith and Chris. They saved my life.

I have a headache from my glasses. My contacts ran out, so I had to switch to glasses, so now my head hurts. I hope my contacts hustle across the continent to me so I don't have to wear my glasses anymore. I like them, but I lose my peripheral vision, which I apparently use a lot. I'm not sure what else would be causing this pain in my head.

My classes continue to load on the reading and assignments. I might slap all the professors I have because I made the intelligent choice of taking 3rd year courses, "upper year" classes. I don't like the workload already, but I like the material so I guess I'll get used to it. I wish I was better at school, naturally!

Friday, January 9, 2009

It's All Alright

I don't have one of my textbooks yet.
Actually, I don't have quite a few of my textbooks yet. But I need one in particular for MONDAY and I'm screwed without it, so it looks like I'm google-ing my readings. Goddamn. Thank goodness Professor E. does "word sheets" so I know the terms and key points I'm looking for.

Housesitting ends tomorrow and I'm sad. I'm going to miss spending so much time with my boy <3>

I have blisters from RockBand. I kick butt at vocals =)

My knee is doing excellently. Thanks for asking!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

And It's Only Going Up From Here

Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday are going to be insanely busy days - and an insanely busy "cycle." There's about a week's worth of reading for the same class IN BETWEEN the second class of the week, but I only have Tuesday to do it, in theory. I'm going to have to do some reading ahead of time and go from there. I'm enjoying the classes so far though.

I've been involved in the planning and executing of a Disability Awareness Day since almost the first day of school. I was so frustrated with my difficulties maneuvering around campus that I wrote a letter to the president of the university, which was transfered to Employment Equity officer, Anne Carrick. She has been an amazing inspiration to me, and has helped me to advocate on the behalf of those who don't. So we, along with a planning group, have been planning this event (and the strike set us back) but then half the group (the half that doesn't show up) decided today to cut our Day down to an Hour and I got really mad and yelled and almost cried, but then I got my way. So it all worked out. I'll hopefully have some videos up of the day later in the month (it's January 28th) so you'll be able to see how it all worked out!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Absence Makes The Heart Grow Fonder

Okay, okay. I'm blogging. Seriously. I have a life you know.

School's started again. I'm already SWAMPED with work and reading. And an empty wallet! Books are fricken expensive. I have yet to even worry about tuition - but OSAP should take care of that. I have to go get mine, and was supposed to today but I couldn't go, I had class.
I'm in:
Theatre History from the 20th Century to Present Day
Canadian Theatre History
Principles and Practices of Arts Administration (distance education)
Issues in the History of Communications
Cultural Policy and Communications in Canada

Three theatres and two communication studies. I'm liking all of them so far, although Cultural Policy with Boin is shaping up to be a mirror of Intro to Comm: Jess, Nate, myself, and now Chris, doing absolutely nothing. It's excellent. We draw on each other.

I'm walking! Without the assistance of a brace. I'm wearing jeans and decided that I don't need to wear my brace at all anymore. I'm sore from so much walking around campus, but it's not too bad.

Also, I've been housesitting with Chris in Amherstburg, so it's been almost two weeks of commuting and I hate it! How I will ever live in Florida, New York or California - where it's all commuting - I will never know!