Voice from Afar

I'm doing a presentation/paper on Jeffery Sconce's "Voice from the Void" article, and it's so funny to think that the obsessions with the paranormal started as early as 1900s. With how developed wireless technology is today - everyone thought wireless would be the new way to communicate with the dearly departed. Instead, I'm sure if I went to a psychic today, or had a seance, I'd use an old cardboard Ouiji board, and see a crystal ball. Typical over-excitement.

Reading week is boring. I don't like it. My knee KILLS so I called in for an 8 hour shift today. No money, but maybe my knee will last a week longer! I'm tired. So tired. But I'm going out tonight with K squared and Chris and who else, who knows!

It's Reading Week

A whole week off school, and I still feel like I have no time at all! Today I have an interview at a Tim Horton's for some painting job. And I'm getting my ear pierced with Sheena today too! Other than that, homework, etc. Joy.

www.fmylife.com

Funniest thing in the whole world.

Back to the Dream

BLUE SKY is the very first step in the Imagineering process.
That phase where "the sky's the limit."
The page is blank and no idea is too big or too small, too realistic or too far-fetched.
Each notion is a vital part of the shared vision.
Every thought helps mold, shape, and improve the "big idea."
The only rule during this time of inspiration?
THERE ARE NO RULES.

This Feeling's Like No Other

I've actually been having a pretty good couple of days.

I've resolved to just let the drama and the petty hate roll off my back. I'm better than it - and they'll figure that out eventually. It's them who is losing out. I've got my friends & the people who love me.

Went to an AWESOME cocktail party last night & Chris got a bid for Pi Lam and I'm sooooo excited about him. I love being a Greek and I'm so happy he has a chance to see what it's like. I've met some amazing people, especially lately, and I'm so happy that I have who I have in my life.

I'm still working on the living here or living elsewhere issue. It's complex. I have to weigh my options.

I have a nasty cough, but my sinuses and head and nose are clear. Just my throat feels like it's BLEEDING and it's awful.

Today: Sunday School, DAT, OotM. Do I ever get a day to do nothing? Jeez.

<3

Sick

I'm sick. I hate being sick. I missed 3 classes today which essentially means I'm royally fucked. I'm hoping I feel better for tomorrow so I can work and go to my class. And I hope that I'll be okay for Wednesday - Disability Awareness Day!

I've been trying to just sleep the cold away. it's working, slightly. But my chin is swollen. So that's not helping things.

Same old, Same old.

Still working on the same issues. Mainly the sorority one. It's frustrating & life is complex.
Thank goodness for the ones who get me throughh <33

All The King's Horses and All The King's Men ...

Couldn't put Humpty together again. And they can't put my life back together again either. I have two hugeee issues in my life right now that I'm just unequipped to handle.

1. Sorority.

I don't enjoy being a DAT girl anymore. I like planning events. I like running events. I enjoy hanging out and talking to those who talk to me - but there's a fair few who don't seek out my company. I didn't do anything to them. I attempt to talk to them and get to know them. But then I am accused of not trying, or not being friendly and flexible. I am friendly. I am flexible. I seek out everyone, I try to get to know each and every girl. It's hard, when there's 30+ girls in the group, but I think I do a good job. So why am I targeted, picked on, hated? I don't know what I did or how to fix it. It's either stick it out until the drama makers go away, or go inactive - and my life can't take anymore stress these days, so inactive is looking pretty good.

2. Home

I don't like living at home. I miss being able to set my own standards and rules. When I lived alone, my room was cleaner than it is here, my kitchen was clean, the living room got cluttered, but there was six of us. I cleaned, I stayed organized, and It was excellent. Here, I fight with everyone I live with, I get yelled at for not cleaning the kitchen I don't make messes is, I get yelled at for not cleaning my room, even though it's my space and no one else has to see it. I fight with my mother constantly. This morning we fought and I cried all through out church, even though it was a church session where I had to be strong and support my council and my decision to not renew our ministers contract. I was very unfocused today and that caused issues. I feel like I'm the brunt of all the anger in the household, and I get accused of being selfish and needy and controlling and pushy. But if you talk to people I work with, at McDonalds, at church, at school, those people can see that everything I do, it's so that someone else feels better. My main concern is always other people, but at home I'm apparently selfish and I don't see it. I can't take it here anymore. I really want to move, but it's not a feasible option for me right now, financially. Plus, when I eventually move I want it to be on a good note, not because we're fighting. I just really miss being me, running my own place and on my own time.

I miss Florida and Disney and Vista Way so much. I want to go back so badly, to work and to live and to be in the sunshine.